photo by @MoMAPS1, saturday 8/23, monica, shamir, and myself
more to come on the show, later this week
I don’t know if you guys know this, but I’m a professional photographer (I know, I know- everyone is), but when I decided to get my degree in photo, I didn’t know that. Regardless, I’ve managed to create a fairly successful career in photo since moving to New York in 2011. Now that I am performing as a musician again however, I find I want nothing more than someone to come photograph my bands’ shows, and this task has proven to be one of the most difficult and disappointing things ever. I don’t know if it’s just that all the photographers (actually very close friends and colleagues) don’t actually care about me or what I am doing, or if they are just shitty people, but I have not been able to get a single photog to one of my band’s, like, 8 shows this past 7 months. At our last Baby’s show, I just brought my camera and shoved it into the hands of one of our most dedicated showgoers, Josh (who actually took some amazing photos and I was eternally grateful to him), and it worked, but it felt desperate and sad on my part for not being cool enough for someone to commit to coming (even when they said they would ‘for sure’ come).
Anyway, I’m done sadding out. Now that we’re playing more ‘sponsored’ events and bigger parties, people are starting to shoot us anyway. And Ive stopped asking people to come shoot. Here are two very cool videos that someone show of Motion Studies last Saturday at Cameo Gallery. The first video is Matter of Time and the second is Distractions- both songs are available online.
Courtship Ritual officially released their brand new full length album this week. They also were named Album of The Week by Stereogum. In my opinion, Courtship Ritual is one of the most promising bands in Brooklyn. I’m not just saying that because they are my friends and I love them, or that they are probably the band that my band(s) have performed with the most. They really are incredible, on and off stage, and this new record is a total gift. I also find this new record very sexy, which I guess is not terribly surprising, given that Jared and Monica are actually a couple (irl). This fact could, but might not always, be taken into consideration. Making music it with your babe adds a whole other layer of intensity that can be extremely compelling, but also v overwhelming (at least that’s been my experience), but when it works, the result is only that much more effective, and in this case, totally passionate. Of course, the reason this record is good isn’t [just] because they’re a [power] couple– it’s because they are very good and have worked very hard.
Courtship has been a serious inspiration, especially over the last few months since I’ve been able to call them friends (and label-mates). Their music is so good, new, and different, and Pith is everything I’d hoped it would be. There really aren’t a lot of things better than seeing people you care about do things that show other people why they should care about them too.
More photos from their last show at Baby’s All Right 7/12/14
luck a series of post adolescent life decisions would have it, I have several highly visible, albeit well-done and somewhat ‘cool’, tattoos. Over the last several months I have been researching the process of laser removal and trying to find whether or not the realistic results of the very expensive, lengthy, and often painful process are worth it.
The thing is this: living with something that is the result of a decision you made [at some point, for yourself-- and all your future selves-- that you thought you would for sure be cool living with for the rest of your life] is a not exactly easy thing in itself. As you change though, this thing, if it does begin to slip out of alignment with you and your identity, it becomes increasingly difficult and sometimes impossible to reconcile this artificial part of yourself with the natural parts of yourself (especially if those [the natural parts] are the parts of your identity you wish to emphasize). It is at once completely humiliating and liberating to admit real regret, especially when the regret is basically tangible, as if the tattoo itself were a deliberate reminder designed to perfectly embody the shape of your feelings (like as they evolve and become more intense, the lines and colors seem deeper and darker, appearing as scars from avoidable accidents rather than whatever it was you felt they were in the beginning) . The whole ordeal has felt like some misplaced personal-size coming-of-age tv-drama reality in which I quietly experience small and sporadic episodes of extreme self-loathing and crushing regret sprinkled on top of what would otherwise be a perfectly confident state of being. This tiny show plays out every few days until it sort of fades out, meanwhile I try to find ways to channel the discomfort into things that remind me I did mostly alright with myself. But I digress.
I only wanted to say that, as of yesterday, I have begun the lengthy and mysterious process of removing 2 of my tattoos, and depending on how these go, I may or may not remove others. I will be documenting the process fully, with words, pictures, actual laser data, and as much extra information as I can. I have found that this whole process/procedure is still relatively new and there aren’t a lot of thorough or helpful personal accounts of the entire process from start to finish. I hope to change that, at least with my experience via my few tattoos (each tattoo being its own process). I haven’t decided which, but I will either be writing about this on here or starting a new blog just for this, but that will be confirmed soon.
I am doing this because I want to feel/be natural again. I want an unobstructed view of my own body. I’m not sure if it will work, but at least I’ll get some feelings out in the meantime.
Last month, my friend recommended me to shoot the subject for an interview with i-D magazine. Coincidentally, that subject was Shamir, my label mate and, for the time being, band mate, with whom I just happened to be rehearsing at the exact moment the my friend contacted me [for the shoot]. So we shot, after practice on N14, and Shamir let his hair down for me. The interview went up HERE last week, but they only used one shot, so here are the rest of my selects, including Shamir’s very own hair flip ‘outtake’ (see reference instagram).